Everyone on our team loves notebooks and journaling, but even we’ll admit it’s easy to become precious about such things. We know some people collect Field Notes COLORS memo books and never write in them. Or, they’re super uneasy about letting any of their notebooks become damaged.

Enter Keri Smith’s Wreck This Journal. This journal literally commands you to “destroy” it in various and interesting ways, whether it’s ripping or poking holes in pages, painting on pages with coffee, flinging the book at walls, showering with it, drawing on it with glue, etc. The point is to get you out of your comfort zone so you can experience what the true creative process is like.

It’s honestly uncomfortable at first to wreck any book like this, but eventually you get used to the catharsis of it. You’ll never journal the same way again.

The book comes in various colors — black, red, duct tape, and paper bag — ranging from $8 to $12, or you can get the entire four-volume set (pictured above) for $42.